It’s been long since I last wrote, I had been busy doing nothing except thinking. Thinking keeps me occupied, I don’t know about others but for me a blank mind is like a vacuum, useless. In the recent past I have been through lots of turmoils, ups and downs. Life is unpredictable, just when you think life has all settled down and there are no more battles to be won, life takes you on a ride to hell. It’s like a roller coaster when it’s climbing it’s slow and stable and you have a chance to catch you breath but then you realise you are on the top and the roller coaster is at it’s slowest, you are not climbing up any more. Next moment you can see the roller coaster very slowly tilting downwards on the rail, and whooooshh, within moments you lose your breath and skip your heart beats.. You are on for a hell ride, the coaster has taken its pace taking you down on the rails and you feel you are about to crash on the ground. The speed, the blur, those fractions of second takes your breath away, your adrenaline shoots up sky high. That’s life in the form of roller coaster and when this becomes a pattern of your life your mind starts liking this hell ride. The sudden pickup of uncontrolled speed, the motion blur, your body and mind gets addicted to this sudden rush of adrenaline. You start craving for more but then you see the roller coaster is slow and stable and it’s climbing up again, higher than you can imagine. You become restless your mind is craving for the adrenaline rush and here you are stuck sky high, still climbing, it’s endless. The maker or designer of the roller coaster hides a smile while he tells himself “The riders are restless with this slow and steady rise, they want to feel the jerk, guess what’s coming up next, it will be the biggest descent than that they have seen till now. It would be the fastest, they would wish they died rather than riding that descent, but I know I have built it safe and strong. It will be safe ride. Ahoy… Down she goes.”
Whenever you feel your life has slowed down, there’s no excitement, no craziness, no rush, be aware because something is surely coming up your way to take you hell down under. It’s like the calmness before a huge storm, the very darkness before the sunrise. We should take that hint and gear up for what’s coming next. It might be pleasant, adventurous, exciting, benevolent or might be malevolent, full of struggles, disheartening, compiled of various losses in life, who knows what’s up next, except the designer of the roller coaster ride of our life.
Speaking of the designer of our roller coaster, who is that? And how does he manage to control this ride. What if he is not in charge and we are on our own, but we like to believe that someone’s in charge it makes us feel safe. Even if we crash in the hell ride we still would like to believe in him and assure others that yes there is someone in-charge. At least people will join the ride. Even I believe that yes someone is in charge or else it’s scary to think you are on planet spinning 1674 km/hr and revolving around our Sun at 30 km/sec, and all this in the absolute vacuum of space with no support no spindle to hold everything together. Someone should be incharge of this whole complicated system. Well, we humans like to divide and separate everything, even this believe of someone being incharge. It’s in our nature to say the same thing like the next guy but by adding some small changes just to prove that my thought is different and better than the next guy. Hence we ended up making religions. All saying the same thing that someone’s in-charge and he has asked us to behave ourselves and not to destroy each others, while he keeps spinning the objects of this universe around in the void space. I mean like what’s the fun in that why would he just keep spinning some of the heavenly bodies? What is the purpose of that? A mere timepass for him ? I don’t know if I was a creator (which I am, being in software engineering and having interest in making innovative things) I would create something that has a purpose. I wouldn’t just write some strips of coding and run them just to pass time. It’s not fun to create unless you have a specific goal, a purpose. When I write a complex code and only I understand the use of it, my computer doesn’t know what’s all this about he just does his job and that’s following my command. What does my hard disk know about the utility of my code. I might write a code to make the system much more efficient much more fast and intelligent or it might be I’m developing a game or a website or some software which is for others to get entertained or make their life easier, it might not be of any use to system itself. The system still follows our command and does whatever we ask for. It doesn’t have an option, it can’t think beyond what we programmed it to think. It doesn’t fight for its right to live and be free it just waits for our next command and the programmer/ engineer is happy.
Imagine a day when your computer stops responding to your commands and start making his own choices. It’s not impossible it happens with us sometimes, our system gets infected with some malware, virus or logic bomb. Its starts spreading through all our file system, our browsers and applications stop responding or does things on its own, something that you don’t want it do and yet it does, why? It’s all because someone created a malicious program, one purpose destroy our files or even our machine and then it spreads sometimes like wildfire from one system to another, over the internet. All because one programer wants to destroy another’s creation. The universe calls him the Devil and our engineer of this universe tries to save his creation from the virus. And what happens when you fail to fix your computer and it keeps doing things that’s harmful and unnecessary (like opening infinite windows and browsers), it consumes all the computers memory and wipes or corrupts files and applications of your hard disk, there is nothing you can do to fix the corrupted. You save the files which are not infected, and are unaffected. It’s just a matter of time till virus spreads all over hard disk. You copy your important unaffected files in an external storage fast and then wipe of the entire hard disk. That’s what our engineer of the universe does. He wipes of the virus and corrupted from the face of the earth. You have heard of the great flood in the religious books, that’s the most detailed description of one such system formatting. May be there were many more in the past that we don’t know of. After the formatting is done we start fresh from the files we copied in the external storage, just like Noah’s ark. A new beginning that’s all it takes.
:) :)
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